Bridging the gap of Uncertainty

as white as the snow

2011-12-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

The silence is so cold

Communicate. Talk. Understand each other.

Urgh.

2011-12-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

Being yourself

2011-12-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

Heyya Bloggy~

Lately I've been plague, tormented and baffled by having to make a decision on which society think is not so right, and on which I think is tolerable and being understanding.. So you see, Christmas is coming and personally, for me its a time of togetherness (if that's even a WORD ^^) for friends and family. A time of joy, laughters and gifts. A time to forgive and forget, let bygone be bygones and turn over a new leaf.

For some, it's a more spiritual occasion..a time to reflect on ones religion. I'm sure everyone is well versed with the origin of Christmas so no need to narrate a novel here :) The question is, can you enjoy Christmas without celebrating the meaning behind the festival? Is it possible to just enjoy the company of friends, without compromising what you believe in? For me, yeabsolutely. It all comes down to how much you believe, and how you're treating the occasion. :)

I might be wrong.. But as the saying goes, "he who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away"; so I guess I'll just stick to what I do best.. Being me. Going through what I had gone through made me realize that I am at my best when I'm true to myself.

Being yourself :P

But I'm lucky..u know why? Because I have friends and love ones to check up on me. Keep me from straying too much off the road. Scolded me when I'm too stubborn, held my hands when I can't seem to find my way in the world, and advised on the right thing to do even when I don't want to listen (but I do consider whatever u're saying).. And for that, I love you guys :)

Ahh...all this mumbling.. Hahhaha!! Okok, I'll cut to the chase..

Just remember that...

you're pretty special..just saying!
ainin

Back to December

2011-12-09T18:37:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

Time is slipping awaaaaaaaaaaaay..

And so...we've collected our exam slips this week. You know, it's funny how we talk of killing time, and at the same time, unaware that time quietly kills us. Pun intended :) So where did all the time go?

Another 2 weeks before final exam and I'm panicking as hell. FYP is...well..being tough on everybody. Lecturers are rushing to get Test 2 out of the way and TIME, is as always..unforgiving.

Haahahha! Hadoii.. Bad bad girl..blaming others when the fact is that she's a lazy bum. Yes, yes. Guilty as charged.

Now back to work.
ainin

p/s: This is as random as it gets :)

Anis Mogjani- Shake the dust

2011-11-30T16:35:00.001+08:00

A little something that will go a LONG way..

This is for the fat girls.

This is for the little brothers.

This is for the school-yard wimps, this is for the childhood bullies who tormented them.

This is for the former prom queen, this is for the milk-crate ball players.

This is for the nighttime cereal eaters and for the retired, elderly Wal-Mart store front door greeters. Shake the dust.

This is for the benches and the people sitting upon them,

for the bus drivers driving a million broken hymns,

for the men who have to hold down three jobs simply to hold up their children,

for the nighttime schoolers and the midnight bike riders who are trying to fly. Shake the dust.

This is for the two-year-olds who cannot be understood because they speak half-English and half-god. Shake the dust.

For the girls with the brothers who are going crazy,

for those gym class wall flowers and the twelve-year-olds afraid of taking public showers,

for the kid who’s always late to class because he forgets the combination to his lockers,

for the girl who loves somebody else. Shake the dust.

This is for the hard men, the hard men who want to love but know that it won’t come.

For the ones who are forgotten, the ones the amendments do not stand up for.

For the ones who are told to speak only when you are spoken to and then are never spoken to. Speak every time you stand so you do not forget yourself.

Do not let a moment go by that doesn’t remind you that your heart beats 900 times a day and that there are enough gallons of blood to make you an ocean.

Do not settle for letting these waves settle and the dust to collect in your veins.

This is for the celibate pedophile who keeps on struggling,

for the poetry teachers and for the people who go on vacations alone.

For the sweat that drips off of Mick Jaggers’ singing lips and for the shaking skirt on Tina Turner’s shaking hips, for the heavens and for the hells through which Tina has lived.

This is for the tired and for the dreamers and for those families who’ll never be like the Cleavers with perfectly made dinners and sons like Wally and the Beaver.

This is for the biggots,

this is for the sexists,

this is for the killers.

This is for the big house, pen-sentenced cats becoming redeemers and for the springtime that always shows up after the winters.

This? This is for you.

Make sure that by the time fisherman returns you are gone.

Because just like the days, I burn both ends and every time I write, every time I open my eyes I am cutting out a part of myself to give to you.

So shake the dust and take me with you when you do for none of this has never been for me.

All that pushes and pulls, pushes and pulls for you.

So grab this world by its clothespins and shake it out again and again and jump on top and take it for a spin and when you hop off shake it again for this is yours.

Make my words worth it, make this not just another poem that I write, not just another poem like just another night that sits heavy above us all.

Walk into it, breathe it in, let is crash through the halls of your arms at the millions of years of millions of poets coursing like blood pumping and pushing making you live, shaking the dust.

So when the world knocks at your front door, clutch the knob and open on up, running forward into its widespread greeting arms with your hands before you, fingertips trembling though they may be.

Sunday blues

2011-11-27T11:23:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Last night I passed out on the bed right after a long cold shower..the towel was still draped over my hair! So tired.. Hmm..such a long day coming to an end like that..tskk tsskk.. Anyway, it's Sunday and tomorrow is a public holiday!!! So that means my weekend has just started :)

There's a book by Nora Roberts that I've been wanting to read. It sat there on the table, staring intensely at me, mocking me for not having the time to flip its pages. Darn it, there never seems to be enough time nowadays. After ADE test on Saturday morning, all I want to do is lie on me bed and read me novels like a good little chap. (I believe THAT can be achieved today ^^)

Its sunny, wonder if I should go to the park to read..
ainin

GG

2011-11-25T07:18:00.001+08:00

(1 a.m. Friday)

Later today at 2 got presentation..slides are done but I haven't rehearse yet..it's okayh, let's do ADE first.

(1.30 a.m Friday)

Oh no, I'm sleepy. It's okayh,test is on Saturday. Nap 10 mins.

(7 a.m)

Damn. Damn. Damn. Nothing is done!

Aishh!

ainin

train of thoughts

2011-11-20T04:19:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy

I have so many things running through my mind right now. Like-

What if there's an earthquake? Will my sleep-loving friends wake up? Would I wake up?
Who created the first ever rumour?
Whispering words to the person next to you will create the whispering effect on him/her too. Why isn't it working on my hamsters?
Why are "chicken" and "burger" sleeping again? I thought they're nocturnal?
How come my laptop is not equipped with graphic card? Not possible?
Do you think I can jump outside my window on the first floor and land safely on the ground? It doesn't look that far down from here.
Make up is interesting. The question is why?
Going places makes you happy. Is it because of a change in scenery or is it because you're spending money? Spending has always been like a therapy for many people
How are puzzles created?
Why do people regret?
Has someone found the fountain of youth? (I'm pretty sure they exist)
Can someone's heart literally stop when they're too happy?
What are dreams?
Running has always been fun. But why do people run?
Taking chances to do something worth while can be seen as stupidity or bravery. What defines the dividing line?
Why do people scratch when they're itchy?
Is the moon made out of cheese?

Oh Chicken and Burger are awake!

ainin

twiggies addiction

2011-11-13T11:00:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

I have a confession. The addiction is bad. I love them!

Oh you chocolatey mouthful of happiness..you make me smile and brighten my day. You make a day's drive feels like a blink of an eye. You shoot rainbows out of your goey deliciousness. You should have a statue or museum dedicated to youuuu

ainin

Sanctum- Movie Review

2011-11-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Remember Apollo 18? Well this movie is stupider than that. Much, much, MUCH worst..

Remember 127 hours? Where a guy's hand got stuck for 127 hours? In Sanctum, a group of cavern explorers got stuck while exploring "Ela Ala", a sink hole, due to an unexpected Munson rain. The rain water from above filled the hole, so they couldn't get out the usual way and had to figure out an alternative. In the end, a guy named Frank, whom I supposed was their expedition leader, led them across an uncharted cave territory where they try to find a way out.

On character wise, there's this lousy woman who whimps and whimps and curse and is NO help at all.. Urgh.. Weak. Hate it. Could go on about her but that will be wasting my time (adding to the 2 hours wasted)

Overall the rating of this movie is 1/10 for effort.

Recommendation: Don't watch it.

In a lousy mood
ainin

shoes and pain

2011-11-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha!

The holiday is over and its time to face the campus life again.. It's nice =) no I'm not crazy!!

Went jogging this evening, wore a pair of sport shoes I bought couple of years back. Darn it, it hurts! After 40 mins I had to give up and use a short cut to get back. Correct me if I'm wrong but I thought girls stop growing at the age of 18? Guess it does not apply to feet huh..

Bought a new perfume earlier this month, now have to buy sport shoes?? This is one of the times that I wish money grow on trees.

Ka-ching!

ainin

Be yourself

2011-11-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

Dear Bloggy..

"This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy"

~Susan Polis Schutz

flowers

2011-10-31T20:50:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling..flowery today. Happy.. Cheerful and delighted at everything I see.. Flowers are beautiful, aren't they?

Amazing..

ainin

its raining, its pouring, the old man is snoring...

2011-10-31T20:36:00.002+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

It's raining again this evening.. It's beautiful isn't it? The sound of raindrops hitting the pavement, wind gushing up and shocking the branches outside your window, the small delighted squeals of passers-by whom had forgotten their umbrellas..

Rainy days have always been magical to me.. it brings an untold peace and beauty into the world. Have you ever walked beneath a canopy of trees just after it had rained? Have you ever experienced the tiny water droplets fluttering down after a cooling breeze? If you have, then you know I'm trying to say. =)

Maybe its just me but I've always imagined tiny fairies having a party after the rain...U know.. When the first sun greets the day after it rains. It's a sight to behold. Fairies in all sorts of imaginable colours go out to have fun. Sipping tiny cups of honeysuckles, flying around chasing after butterflies, that sorts of things. I wish I could see them..

I know they exist somewhere..out there..

Have fun partying!

ainin

Snoring piggy

2011-10-30T14:05:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I wish I can do this as often as I like \''\(^3^)/''/ *stretch and yawn*

me want to sleep
ainin

Extended Proposal Progress

2011-10-30T13:56:00.001+08:00

Dear bloggy,

I finished reading 15 journals!!

-Friday & Saturday : Woohoo distraction!!-

The engineer's table : please note ada minyak angin :)

-I stood up, took a photo and this is how it turned out-

-Good times-

-Sunday (5 mins ago) :All 15 DONE!!-

Now to write the report..

I'm sexy and I know it! *wiggle wiggle*

ainin

Convo dinner

2011-10-25T09:09:00.001+08:00

Headnote: I forgot how stress-relieving it is to blog and chatter myself away..

Heyya bloggy!

It's the time of the year again for convo dinner performance! We started training from 3rd of October for show on the 16th -dinner and 17th whole day (convocation ceremony). Dinner was attended by Tun M, his wife and Petronas CEO (and wife). Photo courtesy of Oliver M. Lim

-Farah, Tengku and Kuo Chun-

-one of the horrendous photo which I have to share!-

-Spawn, Adi and Oli-

-after dinner makan2 for performers-

-after performance-

-took out headpiece and pose pose!-

-New faces: Che Mat, Goay, Reza-

-Virtuoso 2011 line up-

-With best sound engineer ever!-

-Next is our convo!-

-New faces: Shahir, Teh, Zak, Jepp, Cikgu-

-Cikgu's trait mark-

-Gimme a kiss baby! Hahahh!!-

-And finally, my roomate has graduated! Congratulations Zati!!-

ainin

Final Year Paper -FYP

2011-10-25T08:42:00.002+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

So we're final year students! Finally :) It has been a looooooooooong journey.. From Mr Long's high school physics to Ms Chew's foundation physics and finally to Dr Reza's drilling engineering..we've all gone through so much..

-high school-

-matriculation-

-university-

It's almost 8.30 in the morning and the smell of freshly brewed coffee permeates the air.. Refreshing kan? Ironically, I'm not a coffee person. It's just that the smell of it makes my day more complete -energized! Mm..what sane person wakes up so early when the first class is at 10 you ask? Well..if there's 15 journals to be read and summarized, anybody SANE would wake up the moment the first alarm goes off (I have 6 consecutive LOUD ones just in case ^^)

Topic: Torque and Drag analysis and Hydraulic Design for Extended Reach Drilling (ERD)

Will be using Halliburton's Landmark software for this..and since its a licensed programme, block 15 will be my 3rd home.

Was discussing with William whether or not we should bring our sleeping bag :) It's KRS all over again!! Hahhahah!!

Right now I'm going through the 5th journal- Drilling fluids design and management for ERD.. Thank god for SPE papers! I'm burying my nose through more than 10 papers from them. Thank you thank you thank you.

So lets work hard! 1 more year to go!
ainin

crazy

2011-10-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

It's because you drive me crazy that I want to spend my life time with you..

Love,

ainin

jogging..phew!

2011-10-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

It's the start of a new semester adey and it's time for new resolutions! (OR making up for old ones)

No. 1 - Jog at least once a week..

Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to proudly announce that Daly and I went jogging last Wednesday! Yes, it is true. Please, believe it :) Jogging with her has always been fun and I really hope that it's the first of many more to come. Minus the aching back and the jellidified legs, it felt GREAT after that! Woke up the next morning feeling more fresh that I had ever felt in a looooong time. This MUST be the effect of jogging after 1 year of self-denial. ^^

Jogging with a partner is always more interesting than jogging alone. Give it a try! Who knows, it might grow on ya =)

Pumped up,

ainin

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-09-15T23:27:00.001+08:00

Dear Bloggy..

Live with intention.

Walk to the edge.

Listen hard.

Practice wellness.

Play with abandon.

Laugh.

Choose with no regret.

Appreciate your friends.

Continue to learn.

Do what you love.

Live as if this is all there is.

- Mary Anne Radmacher

You are never strong enough that you don't need help..
ainin

Past, present and future

2011-09-14T08:40:00.003+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Which one of these are you living for?

ainin

cannot sleep!!

2011-09-13T08:47:00.003+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

Even fish gets insomnia! So a mere human like me is, inevitably prone to such cases.. I dunno.. There's always this nagging feeling that drives me to the edge to insanity and worries me. It's like waiting for something bad to happen. Eishhh...

U know, in the US, bed bugs are a serious threat. Here, it's just something we say before bedtime..like "sleep tight, sweet dream" or as ayien always said..SUGAR DREAMS! :)

WHICH is not so true for me. Most of the time I'd fall asleep within 2 seconds of my head hitting the pillow but some times I'd lie awake and stare at my fingers. Do you notice that the index fingers of both hands bend outwards? hahahah! HAA!! I bet you just looked at you fingers!

My eyes are now panda-ed :(

Yaaaaaaaaah! Our date yesterday wasn't that fun.

I ended up counting sheeps and have nightmares on getting trampled by hundreds of sheeps, covered in sheep poo..

Sheep poo...

ainin

Happiness - 1/30

2011-09-12T13:43:00.002+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Sarah gave me a book on - "30 ways to achieve happiness". Abit confusing but it still makes a nice read.. Chapter 1 was on "Ponder and give thanks". Here's what I think of it..

It's true that more often than not, we wish for something which we don't have and forgot to give thanks for those that we've already owned. In my oppinion, material possessions don't really make our life any better. It's the feeling of gratitude in having those items that makes you feel good. You could wish for a fairlady z one day and once you've got it, you'd want a ferrari. Know what I mean? If you ain't grateful for it, no matter what you have, you'll never be happy..

I know a lot of people who have a lot of everything, and still they're absolutely the most miserable people in the world. So it won't do anything for you unless you're a happy person and can have peace with yourself. At least. if you haven’t got all the things you want, be grateful for the things you don’t have and wouldn’t want, like sickness etc. Be thankful for the shelter you've got over your head, the meal you've just had, family whom loves you and the friends that you've made.

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not merely uttering words of thanks, but to live by them. I think I learned to appreciate and treasure each day as it comes because you never really know how many you're going to be given. So live life to the fullest, or a more common saying - "Live like there's no tomorrow".

I'm pretty sure that if you concentrate on finding whatever is good in every situation, you will discover that your life will suddenly be filled with gratitude. Trust me, it makes the world much brighter coz the best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. Heyy, every cloud has a silver lining~ Find them :)

So what are you thankful for today?
ainin

Movie review - Apollo 18

2011-09-12T08:35:00.001+08:00

Dear bloggy,

This movie.

It sucks.

Don't waste your time watching it.

Don't be like us.

Regards,

ainin

awesome pics of awesome people!

2011-09-08T10:19:00.002+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I was just rumagging through an awesome tumblr owned by an amazing person, Thanu!! And guess what I found :)

The tumblr:
http://misstzechatterqueen.tumblr.com/

Click here:
pictures of US

Love,
ainin

my to do list

2011-09-08T08:29:00.001+08:00

Lovesummore!

ainin

Random post

2011-09-08T08:23:00.002+08:00

Morning!
ainin

homemade ricotta-cheese

2011-08-26T13:57:00.004+08:00

YES. You've read it right. I'm gonna try to make my own cheese!!

Thanks shutterbean for the homemade ricotta cheese recipe!

Helloo bloggy :)

The sudden inspiration to make my own cheese is due to the fact that ricotta cheese is quite expansive even when purchased in a small container AND i'm baking brownies in the weekend for raya. Though, i doubt the batch would last through the night. :) Anyhoo, a chance to make cheesy version of brownies is just too good to pass.

It's a relatively simple process, there is only one ingredient that is hard to find- kosher salt. If you don't have it (like me), you can substitute it with normal table salt. 1 teaspoon kosher salt = 3/4 teaspoon table salt.

And the rest is history! Once its done (the cheese), I'll post the picture here. ^^

Wish me luck!
ainin

kuih raya

2011-08-24T13:44:00.001+08:00

Salam 24th Ramadhan! Heyya bloggy!!

So fast kan?? It's almost like it was yesterday when I munch my way through sahur ^^ FYI, sometimes i'm the first one to wake up in the family. Haaa...BEAT THAT! :)

It's another week to Raya and there are still so much more to do! We haven't got baju raya done so looks like it'll be last minute shopping mission again ^^ Then there's the kuih raya to attend to. We made lots this year compared to the previous 5 years! I'm not sure whats gotten into our brains but we're baking like there's no tomorrow!

Mum made 4 batches of jem tart (pineapple jam filled cookies) already AND still counting, kaklong has made 6 batches of chocolate chips cookies and I have been helping with ALL. Fuhh...tiring to be me :) Hahahhah!! Okok.. Alright, so I haven't made any cookies specifically. But you know, it's the spirit that counts :)

Author edit : I did!! I remember making honey cornflakes cookies!! Hahahhah!! There!

However, having said that. I did bake 2 cakes over the past 2 months.. Improvement eyh? Hehehhe..^^ My first cake was lemon cake with lemon custard filling. Second cake was...urmm...let's see.. oh yes yes.. It's the chocolate cake I baked for a special occasion. It's nice! (I think) and it's chocolate raspberry cake - so the mild tangy-ness and sweetness of the berry compliments the smooth and delicate flavor of the chocolate. All in all, it wasn't a disappointment :)

Pictures of the cake will be uploaded shortly, but here's a variety of kuih raya for your eyes to feast on. Oh drool drool!!

Bahulu - I like the pandan chocolate chips version

chocolate chips cookies

chocolate marble

Jem tart

kuih lapis

mama carries (not sure of the spelling but the taste..F.U.H)

Edited: Cornflakes madu!

Selamat Hari Raya!

ainin

fasting month

2011-08-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

Salam 8th Ramadhan! Hahhaha! Heyya bloggy!

So here we are. A month of fasting and then its Raya! To everyone out there, I would like to wish all of you Selamat Berpuasa and may this holy month be fruitful and kind to your waist length (ehem)

Make it worth while,

ainin

Holiday season

2011-07-22T15:47:00.001+08:00

No..it's not Raya..

And no... It's not Christmas

NOPE! Not even CNY or Deepavali..

IT'S OFFICIALLY THE STARTING OF OUR 2 1/2 months semester holiday!!

I think I'm about to cry tears of joy :)

Laughter is a melody, a concert from the heart, a tickling by the angels, creative living art...

ainin

Amoy and her babies

2011-07-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

Amoy and kids

Type so looonnggg...disconnected.... Haihhhh...

Nah nah, see photo only la ^^

ainin

The end can be a beautiful beginning

2011-07-18T12:29:00.001+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

8 months!! Feels like 2 kan! Oh boy oh boy..time does fly when u're having fun :) 15th of July marks the end of my internship with Ranhill WorleyParsons, KL. It was fun, amazing and on the whole, a great experience. I met people whom I would not have meet normally. Perv, crazy, old but still super duper hardworking, loud, talkative..hhahha! U name it..

A lot of things happened in the past 8 months and I don't think words are enough to express it all.. So I'm just gonna upload the pictures.. =) Genius! Well, here goes!

BBQ @home

Skytrex with ayien and daly and classmates

Attended weddings

Have my own workspace @Ranhill

Gigs @The Curve

Roadtrips @Karak highway

EAT!! - Sup Tulang

Fun Fair after work! @Sg Buloh

Guitar

Watch Lat the Musical @Istana Budaya

Becomes COFFEE addict!! @Sans Francisco cafe

Hahahha! Well there's of course some more but that's for next time =)

ainin

Death in the family

2011-07-18T12:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggy,

It's been more than 2 months before I can bring myself to talk about atuk's death.

Always smart

Granpa or tok Din passed away on the 4th of May 2011. He died at the age of 68 because of a heart attack.

A few weeks before his passing, tok din was admitted to Bainun Hospital in Ipoh, Perak. After the usual dialysis and check up, he went through a kidney surgery (i'm not sure about the details). It was a success and there were no complications.

Atuk and mama @uncle's wedding

Atuk as Guest of Honor

That fateful May 4th evening, doc said he was free to leave the hospital. To celebrate, he bought the whole ward full of patients KFC - his favourite food :) after the meal, he took a nap and never woke up. Days later, when we went to check out his things, the nurses told us he didn't eat any, he just sat there and watched them happily.

Funny how life seems to take away your love ones without any warning. True, he was in the hospital but he was supposed to go home that very evening.

I miss you atuk. This raya would be a painful one.
ainin

growing old

2011-07-02T15:58:00.001+08:00

Dear Bloggy,

Today, for the first time in my life, I help to change grandma's diaper and changed her clothes. (The maid went home for a day, will be back tomorrow). After more than 5 years, I helped. It was difficult.. But you know what, I didn't mind. She's my grandma after all..

Before things are the way it is today, opah was a lively woman. No man, woman or child can stop her if she wants to do something. U want a cake? She'll bake it. U're crying coz no one is at home? She'll take a plane and fly to your aid. My grandma is amazing. Yup, she still is.

It all changed 7 years ago. It was the year of 2004. Opah did her yearly medical check up when doctor advised her to go under the knife due to a blocked artery in her heart. So after a long discussion with all the family members, she agreed and signed the papers. After a few terrifying hours in the operating room, she came out; doctor said it was a success but they're gonna put her in the ICU anyway for observation purposes.

Things were looking great- the operation was successful, opah was brimming because her health is getting better (meaning more cakes and sweets and butter for her ^^).

What could possibly go wrong?

YES.

That taboo sentence.

When opah was in the ICU, one of her old friends visited her. They haven't seen each other in years! There was hugging and crying and laughing... Suddenly, the worst happened. Opah had a stroke due to the emotion build up. Apparently it was too much for the heart. Doctors were bustling about and nurses were shoo-ing us away. What happened next was a blurr but opah was never the same.

Years had passed since that incident. But that few minutes had changed soo many things; Raya hasn't been the same, going back kampung was never the same. Opah now requires a wheelchair to go around and someone constantly tending to her needs. She's paralyzed on her left side..

Seeing her immobilized, my once strong willed opah..helpless, breaks my heart. She was ashamed when I helped with the diaper just now. I wanted to tell her "opah, you've helped with mine countless of times when i was small. Let me help you now" but I was afraid that I'd start to cry so I didn't. All I said was,"it's gonna be okayh. See opah see? Senang je ni.. Jangan risau la opah, adik kuat je :)"

Growing up and growing old is not a scary process. It is in fact, the most enjoyable thing you can experience. Everyone will age. It's how you feel inside that determines whether you're "young" or "old". Opah was lucky to have found the man she love, married him, lived with him and grow old together.

Me?

Balik Kampung!!

Opah

Ina helping opah

I've got a loooooooooooong way to go..
Ainin

Ms Azelin - PCS

2011-04-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy,

Last week my heart was moved to contact one of our pcs lecturer, Ms Azelin. She's a happy-go-lucky lady who love to laugh! Well, I guess I miss UTP more than I care to admit.. :') Today I got to know from her that she is suffering from SLE or "lupus". It's a health condition whereby your immune system attack your healthy cells; which in her case, was her internal organs.

She suffered from it for a long time adey, even when we were taking our pcs class. Nowadays she still teaches, but her condition has worsen to the point where she pop pills into her mouth like candy. Bak kata melayu, macam makan gula2 je. Makan 24/7.

I know there's not much that we can do for her. To those who know her, please remember her in your prayers. Pray that she'll pull it through. There's no cure for lupus, but there are ways to lessen the pain. In her own words, and I quote "I'm actually living in borrowed time".. I am not sure how critical her condition is but what I CAN be sure of is that she's not letting her sickness stop her from living a fruitful life, however short it may be..

She enjoys the company of her students and I believe those in her class last time enjoyed her lectures as well. I love her, and if you do too, please put a kind thought for her health in your prayers. It doesn't matter what you believe in, love transcends all that..

Ms Azelin we'll pray for you!!

ainin

Hand made cards

2011-04-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

Whaddya think of the post entry? Have you made one yourself previously? And before any of you say anything, no, the one you make in school for art class is not counted :) I know Yunz is awesome in it! If I'm not mistaken, she has a blog somewhere selling hand made cards and other crafts.. Hmm.. Will update once i know okayh! XD

(EDITOR EDIT) YUNZ' BLOG>>
http://purdy-joan.blogspot.com/

Today Kak Zur and I went out for lunch together and we saw this cute card for mummy's birthday! Of course she relates to it more than I do; what with 2 kids running around adey ^^ So anyway, we went there coz I had to run some errands, then we went to look at shiny shoes on pretty little shelves calling out our name..emm..tempting.. You know what, I think girls and shoes (or handbags) are inseparable. I mean, have you met a girl who has NOT drool on one of these?? ^w^

On another note, we have another 13 weeks of internship left. To those in UTP whom are challenging finals soon, I wish you well! Sucks to be you =) Hehhehehe!! Alrightey people! Working woman have to sleep now.. My bed awaits :)

Have a nice day tomorrow!
ainin

Lat the musical

2011-04-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!!

I realize I haven't really update you for awhile now..reception for maxis broadband is terrible here. :'( Other than that, the new house is great! Oooooouuu news update news update! Been working out for a while now (ehem3..) . I can't wait for September..hehehheh!! But of course, a week's worth of exercise would not undo what 4 months of leisure and unstoppable eating did to my body. *shame shame* But I'm working on it! Wish me luck!!

Oooo! Last weekend my family and I went to watch "Lat the musical" in Istana Budaya! Not bad, and I can't believe how many songs Awie (the guy playing Lat) had to memorize! All in all, it was a great show.. Everyone went for an ice cream afterwards and it felt almost perfect. "Almost" because Ina wasn't with us, she was back in campus.. Next time kayh darling^^

Yes I'm chubbier now. I know.

Stop laughing.

p/s: shawl, not jacket.

It was my first show, but not for ma and kaklong. Ma watched "Puteri Gunung Ledang" twice and a few other shows before, it's kaklong's 4th show because she watched 2 seasons of "Cuci the musical"... (she was crazy over it!!) and uhh...something with ma for the 3rd time.. I was left out because you know..in utp for all the shows.. But not THIS time! I was in the car even before they got ready. Buhahahhaha!!

I met Haq there! Hahhaha! He graduated last year..small world :)

Till next time! (If the connection permits)
Ainin

300th post!

2011-03-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

I'm better now.

I found that if you love life, life will love you always..

Counting life by the moments,

Ainin

realisation

2011-03-04T17:18:00.001+08:00

As I'm sitting here, typing this, I admit to myself- depression has gotten to me. Its like everyone is at fault and nothing is right anymore. I tried food, it doesn't work. I tried smiling and laughing..urgh..it wasn't very successful either. What I really need now is a good night's rest. But you know what? Even my body is bailing out and wakes me up at least once every night.

A tired mind makes a grumpy me. Cranky and really touchy. But of course, why should I expect anyone to understand that? Everyone has got their own problem and I'm just another person, going loco as time pass.

I'm afraid. I fear for the time that i will push everyone in my life away. Its definitely coming. I can feel it. No matter how I try to smile and laugh when there's company, that horrible feeling is always at the back of my mind, waiting for me to be alone and then POUNCE!

It's like screaming into the wind. Makes you even more tired and frustrated because no one gets it. All I want is a shoulder to lean on and a pair of arms to hugg me and tell me that its okayh to feel like this once in awhile. I know I shouldn't even think of expecting this from anybody but is that too much to ask?

At work I'm expected to be at the top of my job. With a golden opportunity so near I can almost taste it, I HAVE to be the best. LA CREME. I often tell myself not to get my hopes up, just in case. But its hard when you want this so bad. So so bad. And at home, I feel like I'm disappointing people. I do.

How to be sane like this? I tried concentrating on the happy moments. Remember how to kill a boggart? Happy thoughts. Its just that the evil ones keep creeping in. A momentary distraction is all that it takes to shatter the temporary bliss that I conjure. If I manage to that is.

OMG. This is depressing. I need to stop this.

Actually, I'm feeling better. All this ranting and venting. It actually helps.

Thanks..
ainin

peace

2011-03-04T16:40:00.000+08:00

Oh yea?

ainin

sleep

2011-02-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

*hugg* It's been so long.. I'm okayh, thanks for asking ^^ Intern so far has been good to me.. Other than the lack of sleep and the tiredness every night, it's great! Tirza, Alex, Fizah and Martin are my faithful lunch buddies..and thus far, we've been around kl to find adventures and seek something new to excite our taste buds. But no matter where we go, after more than 3 months interning, we (Tir and I) have concluded that the restaurant next to office has got THE best sambal. EVER! I KNOW we'd miss this the most when we get back to UTP :)

Weekend you ask? Oh. Don't get me started! Let's see.. After 12 weeks, I've only stayed home and relax (sleep!) for no more than 3 weekends.. The rest? Out. Out. Holiday. Out. Out. ^^ I love it! Oh there was 1 weekend where mama and I went to Sabah for weekend getaway! Another post for that peeps. :)

Of course, it's a norm for final year students to be "chubby".. Baru balik intern wert.. Normal lah ^^ I have "successfully" change my pants size TWICE. For bigger or smaller? Ur guess is as good as anybody's. Oh and also popped the button of my pants during lunch. Niceeeee.. Hahhaa!! But no regrets though. I'll lose them..someday.. :) In the mean time, I'm gonna enjoy life back home. Eating mum's cooking...eat out whenever nobody feels like cooking and eating 3 plates without having to pay sumore. The thing I do miss is Nasi Lemak Sithick... Man.. You won't get it anywhere else! It's an artwork..the way they place the sunny-side-up egg on the steaming hot nasi lemak...accompanied by crunchy anchovies and cool cucumber,,AND the most important ingredient of all...the SAMBAL. Oh the sambal...

10.20??? Oh no.. I gtg. Sleep time. I have a date with destiny. ^^ Till then folks! Stay healthy and enjoy every minute of your life!

Love,

ainin

Lonely no more- Rob Thomas

2011-02-03T19:35:00.002+08:00

What if I give all my life to find some way to stand beside you?

ainin

hello 2011

2011-01-27T22:14:00.001+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I realize that i haven't update you in a looong time. First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Let this year be filled with happiness and remember that you are a creature unlike any other. Love yourself and always remember that YOU come first..

Hahahha!! Alrightey, with that outta the way. Let's welcome..

INTERNSHIP!

So okayh, I'm doing mine in Ranhill WorleyParsons at Sunway Tower, KL. Lotsa things to experience, so little time! Do you know that it has been 8 weeks?? 8 WEEKS!! I couldn't believe myself when I was doing this week's log book. So fast...

Oh!! The day before yesterday, I met Zati in KL Sentral!! Gosh, such a coincident! Meeting her was like a breath of fresh air. Truth be told, I was up to my neck with work. Well..not because I have TONNES of work every day, but the work itself, the repetitiveness of it gets to me. It was interesting at first, but after that... Hahha!! Well well, I'm better now. Who would have thought..all I needed was good food and a good companion. Mystery solved!

On a totally different note, I haven't been able to meet with my high school buddies. WHoooooooops! Sorry yea guys...my weekends are fully booked!! And weekdays..well by 10pm I can barely keep my eyes open so yeah..that option is out of the window as well. I'll find the time!! I'll try very very VERY hard okayh darlings?

That's all for now! Will add abit more when I can steal sumore time..

It's a strange thing, but when you are dreading something, and would give anything to slow down time, it has a disobliging habit of speeding up..

ainin

the LIST

2010-12-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." -Robert Frost

Omaiomai. I have sooooo many things i wanna share with you but where did the time goes?? I'm just gonna write down the titles for now okayh? At least that'll help me to keep track of the things i want to tell. Alritey..here goes..

DFP (Dewan Filharmonic Petronas)
A night with the dancers (before convo performance)
Convo Dinner 2010
Internship 101
A month of happiness (or misery??)
Abg Mir's wedding
Happy birthday mum! Happy 2011!

I may be full of flaws but my actions are full with good intentions,

ainin

gone

2010-12-04T14:02:00.000+08:00

"One day I'll be gone, and when that day comes. You should know that I'll never come back."

ainin

I command you to STOP!

2010-12-03T03:49:00.000+08:00

Heyy bloggy..

It's been a rough week, things are topsy turvy right now and I don't seem to have any control over what's happening. It's all too fast! (or maybe i'm just too slow..) Internship starts next week and nothing seems right yet! Aaaaaargh!

Went to " Jalan Changkat Raja Chulan" today with mama and ina and kaklong. We took the train coz that's how I plan to go to work anyway. HAVE YOU SEEN THE JAM IN KL?! Nonsense. Q.Q We manage to find the place in the end. Injury time: 1 hour. We got lost. and the stuff that needed to be taken care of was done within one and a half hours. Then we got back home, stopping for dinner of course..but it's tiring. Like dead TIRED.

Then went to mak uda's house. It's Kimee's birthday! Happy birthday adik kecik! Oh and twas a conjoined birthday with abg Farhan as well. Happy birthday to both of my dearest cousins!! May you live a long and fruitful life. (2nd December)

(Pic: Kimee- my not-so-baby cousin)

On another note, I can't believe abg Mir is getting married this Friday. I can't imagine life without him hanging around, with a guitar in his hands- ready to play any song in the world coz he is THAT awesome. T.T The bride better treat him good and not make him cry, else i'm gonna pull her hair. REALLY PULL. WITH STRENGTH!! Buhahahhhahaa! Joking2..I'm sure (and i hope) that they will have a happy married life together. Once you're married with someone, the special person is suppose to be your other half. So be truthful, be kind and most importantly, love each other with everything that you have.. Heyy2! Don't gimme the evil eye. I dunno when i'm gonna have the courage to marry someone, coz i'm just THAT BIG of a coward. But i guess, the person who will make me see past all my doubt and my fear of marriage, will be a person that can blow me halfway across the world with just a smile. He'll be my personal knight in shiny armor. My love. The bearer of my heart. (Aishhh.. I sound like a total douche bag so i'm gonna stop all this mushy2 stuff now. ^^)

Currently having a sleepover in Bangi, just finished 3 hours of jamming session. Gosh, i am OUTDATED on songs. Its bugging me. And speaking of bugs, these mosquitoes really need someone to show 'em whose the boss around here. They think what? My body is a buffet table ka?

shieldtox ooo shieldtox..

ainin

2 1/2 years

2010-11-30T09:04:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggy..

Today will be the last day i get to spend with my roomie, Zati. Without realizing it, we've been together for almost two and a half years.. It's saddening to see her go to her last paper this morning. Then at noon, it'll be my last time to see her off..

She has always been like a big sister to me, and whether she realized it or not, she taught me how to be patience and tough on situations that i couldn't handle previously. She also taught me that it's okayh to be pissed but you must forgive and forget in the end. *tears rolling down* We've been through soo much together..

It all started when we met during utp interview session..unknowingly, we clicked right away. We both successfully passed the interview and became roomies for the 1st time during orientation week. We both liked it and so the relationship goes on till our 3rd year 1st semester. Oh, I forgot to mention, Zati is a diploma holder previously so for her degree she had to do only 3 years (lots of exempted subjects), aaaaaand she pushed her internship back to her last year. Hence this year, when i see her off for semester break, it will be the last one as her roomate. After intership, she'll graduate right away whilst I have another year to complete.

Our roomie-relationship has its ups and downs moments, but that's life..you know. Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change. Changes are not necessarily ALL bad.

To be honest with you, writing these words down doesn't make me feel better, but I hope that if you're reading this darling, do remember that you'll always have my arms to give you a hug, my ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and my heart; a heart that will always miss you. It has been a truly amazing 3 years and thank you for everything.. Hope to see you in KL okayh! Or whenever wherever :)

"Life is a dance- colorful, vibrant and captivating"

ainin

la pluie

2010-11-29T16:31:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy,

it's raining again. It's funny..but I think I'm gonna miss UTP..

No..it's not because of the lectures and lecturers..

No..it's not because of the bed. (though it is a rather fine bed)

No..it definitely is not because of the cafes..

It's the laughters. It's the love. It's the joy and smiles that we've had. I had a lot of my "first"s here but I'd rather not tell 'em. My mommy used to say, "never kiss and tell" :) And here, I learn how to imagine, and how to dream. In return, they gave me wonderful memories, and left footprints in my heart.

I believe that all of us have had some great times here. Some might ponder "Is there?", some might smile and shake off a quiet laugh, some might even shudder at all the stupid things that they've done. But no matter what the reasons may be, I think everybody will agree with me if I say that we've had a hell of a good time :) Everyday, without knowing, these little memories are sewn into our life, shaping us like a potter shapes his pots. They say memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.. Then I really hope that one day, we'll be able to look back and say- "Heyy.. I kindda grew up here.."

*sigh* Well I dunno about you, but i'm kindda dreading the days for internship.

To sum it up, in the end all that really matters isn't the things we did, but what its effects are today, not the knowledge we have learned, but how we applied it, not the words that were said, but how they made us feel, and most of all, not the moment of occurrence, but how its now just a part of our memory..

(Left from bottom): Ayien, Lea

(Right from top): Zati and I

Everyday, we make memories.. Let's paint lives with happy ones, shall we?
ainin

Happy 18th birthday Ina!

2010-11-27T11:08:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

A post dedicated to my dearest little sister.. Hahhaha! Happy 18th birthday darling (26th Nov)! May the dreams that you dream turn into reality. May the stars always shine upon you and may love be the center of your universe because there is nothing more worth living for than love :) I love you sistaaa!

-Skype-

Ina: Tgk ina tgh makan ayaaaaaaam!

Me: ....okayh...

-2009-

-Raya 2009-

Ina and Shira

-Game time!-

Ina and kaklong

After exam we'll go out yea! :)

ainin

sociopath monster

2010-11-26T20:14:00.001+08:00

Every once in a while, we feel like we want to murder somebody.

In my case..it's the person who first came up with RMS.

Well..that could be hard..

Since they're probably dead edy =.=

Plus Je Pense A Toi

2010-11-26T18:47:00.004+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

My French paper is only but 2 days away. So for that, I've been listening to some french song or in french its chanson de francais. :) I've got a few good ones but this song (refer post title) is the best one so far. It's a soft ballad, piano accompanied type. Gogo listen! And here's the lyrics for it. Enjoy!

Plus je pense à toi

by Patrick Fiori (Album: Chrysalide)

Pour les jours silencieux, où j'écoute tomber la pluie,

Et les matins frileux qui me font regretter nos nuits.

Pour toutes ces différences qui créent l'indifférence, depuis,

Pour les heures passées à regarder tourner l'ennui.

Et les trésors cachés qu'on enterre à jamais sans vie,

Pour tous les souvenirs qui s'ennuient à mourir, et puis,

Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois

Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.

Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,

Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.

Pour cacher mes erreurs que je commets par cœur, et si,

Au profit du bonheur, j'échangeais la douleur sans bruit.

Pour ces sommeils qui dansent, comme des récompenses enfuies,

Comme le bleu des nuances devient gris de souffrance, aussi.

Pour les soleils violets que tu dissimulais meurtrie,

Et les rires empruntés qui te raccrochaient à la vie.

Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois

Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.

Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,

Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.

Laisse-moi respirer, juste une heure encore,

Cette fleur fânée, puisque la mort ennemie a pris l'amour d'une vie.

Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois

Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.

Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,

Et je m'aperçois, que tu manques à l'espace.

Laisse-moi respirer, juste une heure encore

Cette fleur fânée puisque la mort ennemie a pris l'amour d'une vie.

Pour les jours silencieux, où j'écoute tomber la pluie,

Et les matins de Dieu je te regrette chaque nuit

Right now, I'm officially in love with this guy's voice..

ainin

on a roll

2010-11-22T19:24:00.004+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Determination.

Commitment.

Desire.

Determination is one of the keys to success. More often than not, we know exactly what we want and NEED to do in order to achieve it but still ..we are not able to make it happen. One of the biggest reason is that people give up too early and too easily. We succumb to pressure and fail to look beyond the despair of the present- to the future. No ever said reaching our dreams is going to be easy. In fact, it's hard and that's why most people fail to live the life that they want.

"Desire is the key to motivation, but it's determination and commitment to an unrelenting pursuit of your goal - a commitment to excellence - that will enable you to attain the success you seek."

~Mario Andretti~

"Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you."

~Denis Waitley~

“You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.”

~Albert Einstein~

"The end of something is the beginning of another opportunity."

ainin

byebye econs!

2010-11-21T12:35:00.001+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Here ye here ye! Done with Econs paper in Chancellor Hall! :) This sem, I was placed at the last seat, and its not as cold as sitting at the front. Your teeth will LITERALLY chatter the whole time while sitting there!! >< Trust me, speaking from experience nii...

Anyway, with Econs down I have another 4 papers to go before sweet sweet freedom! woohoo! Next would be WTA (well test analysis) paper on the 24th..what day is it again?? *checking calendar..rustling papers sound* ahh yes, Wednesday. That's not for another 3 days so there's room to breathe. =)

Back in IRC (i'm very rajin this semester, have been going to irc practically everyday! Dunno why also..^w^) already. Must finish WTA then can continue with rms. Omaiomai. Everytime i think of RMS i get shivers down my spine. MUST.FINISH.THIS.SEM.ALIVE.

hahah! Alrightey! Best of luck people! (Good mood good mood)

ainin

an old picture

2010-11-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

-Emy and I back in 2008-

I was feeling nostalgic :')

ainin

early riser

2010-11-20T10:32:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!

..and they said I couldn't wake up early.. Hahahha! Now Haris have to cook :)

It all started last night when we were trying to fix the time to come to IRC today. Since tomorrow is Econs paper *gasp*, going early and coming back early would be the ideal thing lah. So after deliberating and thinking and laughing and laughing, it was decided that we'd arrive in irc 9.30 sharp . AND THEN RIGHT, they questioned my ability to wake up early.. Hahahhah! I mean, i do SOMETIMES overslept (more often than not) but in rare cases and once in a blue moon when I need to wake up, I do ^^ (especially if foods are on the line)

Furthermore, Thanu and Haris decided to stake something. They wager a meal each; if i manage to wake up early and be downstairs by 8.30am- Haris will cook. And Thanu will cook if I overslept and snore on and on like a piggy ^^

See how NOT having faith in me do to you?? In YOUR face! Hahhahah!! I know you're reading this :) And so, that's the story of how I got a free meal for WAKING up early. What an anchievement. So proud :) Hhehehheh! Anyhoo..I shall let you people in on a little secret. *ehem3* Ever since matrix, and up till now (uni life), I've always needed help in waking up in the morning..especially going to CLASS =/ You know the drill lah, 8 am classes, sometimes missed sometimes manage to attend :) (which explains the terrible coursework mark i got this sem...><) LOL. Ayien is my savior, an angel in disguise. Wakes me up pretty much EVERY morning. I owe her big BIG time!! Need to belanja her or do something for her before we part for internship..

I'm blabbing too much aren't i? :) Hahah! It's a nice morning that's all. I like to share my good and RARE mornings. (on the count of i rarely wake up and get the chance to even greet the morning sun) So peeps, sleep early and you'll be able to wake up early. Don't burn the midnight oil okayh! I know it's exam week and all but it'll be a good morning if you manage to wake up early. Trust me. It's AWESOME!

Awesome companions makes your day awesome!

ainin

twisted truth

2010-11-18T20:10:00.002+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

Quote of the day: "Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." ~Marilyn Monroe

Things have been difficult lately, it's like treading on fragile egg shells. Despite the pun of words and the occasional hellos and goodbyes, I think we've backed ourselves into a corner and right now, we're pretty much stuck. Hmm.. I don't know how to put this feeling, this uncertainty, into something as limited as words. In fact, the more I try to define how and what it is, the more wrongly it came out.

Hatred would have been easier. With hatred, I would have known what to do. Hatred is clear, metallic, one-handed, unwavering; unlike love.. Ahh..love.. Life's cruelest irony. Something that brings you much happiness but in a brain the size of a peanut like mine, can be complicated. ^^ Nono..dear readers (I was contemplating whether or not i should put the 's' for plural), I am not falling into depression. It's just the exam is getting into my head ><

And...speaking of which, my first paper would be on this Sunday- Engineering Economics and Entrepreneurship or Econs for short; coz the whole thing is just such a mouthful. Beh.. Anyhoo.. I shall float back to reality and continue with rms. Still haven't figured the derivation of continuity equation yet. Omaiomai. I'm DEFINITELY in trouble.

ainin

home

2010-10-21T01:14:00.001+08:00

I was in the mood so i browsed through the picture folders in my hard disk..

Oh gosh i miss home..

This is pathetic.

I'm big enough to go home whenever i want, but there's always the 'I CAN'T COZ I HAVE....'. *sigh...wipe eyes* On a brighter note, i shall update my entries in the weekend. Lots had happened and I can't wait to share!

(Music on playlist: Gravity- Sara Bareilles)

ainin

fuzzy path

2010-10-05T08:54:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggy..

Sometimes when things seems unsure; and life gives you options, one darker than the other, what should you do? Should you just get a hold of yourself and get it over with? That means you should journey down the road no taken and clear it once and for all... Or is the saying "Ignorance is bliss" true? By not knowing, everything is ok..

It's funny how mankind's problem get more complex as technology and our lifestyle gets more and more advance. Machines are suppose to simplify our life, aid us in our day-to-day work. And yet, machine as also the ones contributing to our ever deteriorating health. Cars for example, helps us move from one place to another faster and more comfortable than walking. But look at us now? Obesity for lacking of exercise. A mamak stall not 5 minutes from your house also u wanna go by car.. Then the green house gases that car exhaust emits.. carbon dioxide, carbon monoxide.. You name it.

People say..sometimes, it's better not knowing. But i'm gonna get it out of the way.

Once and for all.

ainin

a day unlike any other

2010-10-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I stayed in my room ALL day long today, except for getting my meals and a few bathroom breaks, i practically stayed on my bed- with the guitar, else I'd be on my desk, facing the computer. It really hasn't been a productive day. I blame it on the constant headache (excuses) ^^

It's October already. October always makes me think of Halloween. You?

True, we never celebrate the season holiday here but I kindda wish at least once in my life I'd experience putting on costumes (i think i'm more of a really scary vampire or a reallllyy sizzling devil *grr*), wear scary make ups and go trick-or-treating on halloween. Sounds fun eyh? Who cares that i'm 21 and far too old for that kind of stuff. If it's fun then I'd be there :)

Some view Halloween as a time for fun, friends and family. Others still see its superstitious nature or ties to the deceased. But whatever your view, you cannot deny the fascinating nature of the story of Halloween. To those celebrating it, do have an awesome month preparing for it! *wolf howling softly in the background*

ainin

2nd blog peeps!

2010-10-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

I HAVE A NEW BLOG! Well technically it's not gonna replace this one but the new one is more specific.

http://ba-vo.blogspot.com/

Let's get the partaayy started!

ainin

chocolate or flowers

2010-09-30T10:38:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!

I'm sure that at one point in your life, you've been asked this simple question before.

''Tu prefere le chocolat ou les fleurs?"

Personally, I prefer chocolate, you can share the happiness around and furthermore...IT'S CHOCOLATE!! What more should i say? Other things are just food. But chocolate’s chocolate. Period. *evil laugh* Flowers are pretty but in the end, they'll wilt.

I know what you guys are thinking.. "Girls generally said that but when we (guys) give 'em pretty ladies flowers, they would be head over heels about it" True, that happens, but the flowers are temporary happiness, a jolt of lightning into the heart which makes it flutter and excited. Chocolate on the other hand is a soft, melodious music that plays through your whole body, calming down senses and waking up forgotten desires along its way.. Ahh...here comes the sudden crave for a Sneakers bar.. *rummaging through my food stock*

Save the earth, it's the only planet with CHOCOLATE!
ainin

Movie Review- Avatar the Last Airbender

2010-09-28T15:46:00.003+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I just finished the movie and sadly, it has not lived up to my expectation. For instance, Saaka is NOT funny at all! And Katara? Bluehhh..Ang? Hurm..there isn't much emotion in his acting. It's quite disappointing actually..coz i'm a big fan of Avatar and I've watched the whole animation series..sad SAD!!

The movie started with the discovery of Ang in the ice by Katara and Sakka. Then Prince Zuko and his uncle, general Airo was introduced into the movie- chasing the avatar all around the globe, so that Zuko could catch the avatar and redeem his honor after being banished by his father- Fire Lord Ozai (errr..what was his name again?).

Contrary to the original story line, there isn't much humor in this movie- even Sakka was portrayed as a serious character! *gasp* and Ang's not playful at all. He's just this boy determined to change the world back to the way it was before. Not much fun. Another bluueehh here.

All in all, Avatar the Last Airbender is rated 1/5. Sorry folks! You're gonna have to do a LOT more to bring this series to life ^^

ainin

Convo 2010

2010-09-26T10:40:00.000+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

The time of the year has come again! :) It's time to sing!! Practice has only just begun, and preview is next week already Q.Q This semester they gave out the song list a wee bit late, don't you think so?

Last night was so cold that i woke up with cramps on both my thighs and feet! UTP is getting more and more conducive to sleep, and I only have 2 8am classes this semester. Heaven! ^^ Weee!

Anyway peeps, am going to go to block B now, and once i get back, 2 assignments awaits.. Haaa..at least i get to do it while eating mom's super delicious chocolate cake!

Dryer spinning my laundry..spin spin..
ainin

Loves

2010-09-24T01:56:00.001+08:00

HAT!!

Dinner @ Mr Elias'

2010-09-23T20:37:00.002+08:00

Bonjour!

Just got back from French class.. Getting my butt off the bed to go to class was a challenge today. What with the non-stop rain and my head going coocoo, my body sort of just detached itself from my brain. Hahahhah! Come to think of it, it's been raining since yesterday! It only stopped for a couple of hours before the sky pours again.. Very conducive for sleeping ^^

Ah, got last Monday's quiz back. Q.Q Terrible beyond words. So far my worst quiz in UTP :( Tsskkk..raya mood ma, what to do? Hehheh.. Anyway, there's a story behind the dinner tonight. It all started with the word..

FOOD

It was before Raya and mid-sem break, during the fasting month. As usual, by 12noon you can hear stomach grumbling and eyes staring into blank space (in my case- already planning what to eat). And at that time, we were having WTA (Well Test Analysis) class taught by Prof Birol. My mind was shifting in and out of the class. The first 10 minutes were more like a jumble of "In the pressure analysis, we need to.....ayam percik covered in thick sauce...semi-log graph...watermelon juice? nono..air kelapa..today's assignment reward is a sponsored dinner for 4 people..hold on..did he just said DINNER??" Hahahha! So yeah, it was an honour to be among the 4 lucky ones, and tonight we will e reap what we sow!! :)

We're going to Mr Elias (our drilling engineering lecturer)'s restaurant not far from utp. I've never been to the place so hurmm..I can't wait to see what's on the menu!

Life is like a rock candy; it may be hard, but it's sweet at the same time,

ainin

Why boys should marry lady engineers :)

2010-09-22T02:12:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!!

OH.MAI.GAWD.

It's been ages! Hahhaha! So this is my come-back post. So girls out there, this is for YOU!

Why you should marry an Engineer
Let me tell you why boys should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. She has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
An engineer girlfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives her a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too.

Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firm.
Most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan.
The arts graduate is still looking for a job.
And the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.

Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
An engineer girlfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of her time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand men as well, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy a new gadget = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear.

Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you.
The Management graduate who will try to control your spending,
The Arts graduate who will 'change major'.
And the medical school graduate who will operate on you.

Advantage 3: An engineer girlfriend will never betray your trust.
Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others -

The lawyers will lie about everything.
Management graduates will cheat your money.
The arts graduate will flirt,
and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate.

Your engineer girlfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if she does, she is too straight to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure girlfriend that you will ever find - will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too straight to lie to you. plus WE are COOLER than the others.

Cheers engineers worldwide!!
ainin

Birds should be potty trained

2010-07-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Shell Eco-Marathon (SEM) is only a couple of days away- 3 days to be precise. So today we were busy doing the supporter's flags in SAE lab. Since the checkered flags are still there from TEC, we have decided to reuse them la.. BUT, while we were busy with other stuffs, apparently birdies in UTP had taken a liking to the flags and decided to "mark their territories". and who ended up with the job to wash those stuff out?

Yeah. Me.

So..I spend like 1 whole hour just to wash 2 flags and a banner. Urghh...aiyoo.. The smell was unimaginable!! Blardy birds off with its business everywhere! Someone should teach them some basic toilet manners. Tskk... Don't get me started on how much soap I had to use to make it smell clean and lemony >.< On the bright side, I get to play with bubbles!!! and makcik cleaner don't have to wash the toilet tomorrow coz I've cleaned the place thoroughly.

Okayh then twerps! I'm off to block B to practice! Although I'm having second thoughts, it doesn't mean I shouldn't give it my all right? ^^

ainin

Where to go from here?

2010-07-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

Dear bloggy

What happened few weeks back always gives me the twitch everytime i reminisce about it (It was a necessary decision but no one should have to go through that). Luckily couple more days here and off we go to Sepang! That ought to take my mind off things. You know, after what happened, I have come to a conclusion- severe commitment issues. Seriously.

Everything seems vague, though I recognize the need to step out of my comfort zone and change my routine, the WILL to do it is just not there. Now, I am not gonna curl up into a ball and never go out to see the world again..nor will i throw fits and bawl my eyes out..No worries no worries~ But for the time being at least, lemme be this person who live on a routined day-to-day basis.

That's why..when practice was cancel today and I missed the chance to go out with Thanu and Suresh (because I wasn't aware of the cancellation..didn't go online!), I was dumbstruck and didn't know what to do!! Haiyoo..pathetic weii.. Then in the evening when Fuad called and ask me out with SEM team members for satay..me being L.A.Z.Y today; declined. Hahahah! Shite, am turning to an anti-social freak, with my nose stuck in a book all the time.

I don't feel like it laaa..why ahh? Someone tell me what to do??!
ainin

crab vs prawn

2010-06-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Not long ago, we had makan2 at a friend's house. (Thank you for the awesome food!) There were crabs..yummy mouth watering crabs ^^ Those big and juicy ones? Yeah. That's the one :) I had 1 whole and couldn't take it anymore. I'm just soo full! (YES. That CAN happen.) ~~And also coz i was a bit shy >.<~~ Mee bandung was also on the menu. Rice + Mee...dayumm....safe to say, twas a night to remember =)

Then today.. prawns were served for lunch! I had my lunch..then 10 minutes later, I had another helping. Then within the next 15 minutes, another serving. Then in the end, i made up my mind and went to the kitchen and stayed there till me bowl was licked clean :)

p/s: babe, it really is just about prawns and crabs. No need to think so deep la hon :)

Oh BTW, I went to an italian restaurant the other day for dinner with my family. Awesome food! The appetizers and main courses are MUCH better compared to Italiannies, seriously. But we haven't tried the dessert. So the strawberry cheesecake in Italiannies stays top in dessert section ^^ Will do the review on Behzo's in the next entry.

Stay tuned!
ainin

last paper- well com 9am

2010-05-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

One word.

DOOMED

ainin

Eupho Finale

2010-05-28T03:53:00.003+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

The final round for Euphonious 2010 was held in Chancellor Hall on the 23rd of April 2010. We started off the day with a rehearsal in CH at 10am (supposedly), but of course la.. In UTP, Malaysian timing's effect very huge- it got dragged on till 1pm..tsk tsk..

THE FINALIST
(in order of appearance)

RAPTORS
THE SEVEN STICKS
STEREOPOP
SALMAH & THE SWINGERS
PROJECT E.N.D
HAZEL
THRENODY
SOUR STRIPES

Then after lunch, Stereopop had another round of rehearsal coz in the morning Kay's effect mixer/board was MIA-ing. We sang la, danced la, hop hop on the stage la.. then had to go down and let another band rehearse..sad sad.. BUT that gave me some extra time to go to the HAIR DRESSER n fix my hair for the night!! Woohoo!

Zati (my roomy), Lea and I went to the saloon at around 3 something. Oh FYI, the hair didn't survive till our turn for performing (which was bout at 9.30??).. haiyaa! To save the curls, we sprayed on like about a WHOLE can of hairspray?? But my stubborn straight hair went back to its original state in just a couple of hours ^^

We had fun that night though. Ahh! Don, Ivan, and Kahwai came to UTP! Wahahha!! I love you guys!! XD Hurmm..although there were small technical problems here and there (Apek's guitar string broke..wooowooo Q.Q), our fighting spirits were unaffected. T'was an awesome night and there were a lot of pictures! I'll just post some here, and the rest you can view from my facebook page or Stereopop's fanpage okayh? :)

Best line up ever!

We got 4th..but we had FUN FUN FUN!! Mmmuuuaahh!

Crazy people who came ^^ Thanks a bunch guys!

Ainin, Fuad, Thanu.. Let's stay together like this okayh? <3

Smile!!!

Last words: Stereopop will rock for fame and food ^^

ainin

pictures

2010-05-28T03:38:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

My last post was abit too wordy ^^ So here's pictures pictures pictures!!! ^^

I finished the last episode of "Boys Over Flower" today!! Yeayy!!

He is just soooo adorable! I mean, just take a look at him!! XD Woot woot!! *wink*

I want to BEAT this record one day. Watchout world! ^^

I should be doing *THIS* now..

SHOULD is the keyword :)

Goodnight earthlings! May the melodies of life guides you to a wonderful dream!

ainin

of stars and dreams

2010-05-28T02:59:00.010+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Stars are pretty aren't they? They sparkle in the night sky, brightens up the otherwise dark and gloomy atmosphere.. It kindda relates to dreams.. Whenever life seems to close in upon me, I would sit down and reminisce about my life. How I've been living it and how even the smallest problem that baffled me in the past can bring me laughter now. Then I remember that my dream was what held me together during those times and that thought alone would always make my day. For me, dreams bring hope of a new beginning, of a fresh start when the present seems hazy and blur..

"No matter what happen, never lose sight of the big picture", is what I always tell myself when I feel that all hope is lost. Always remember that YOUR dreams are within you, it is up to you to make them come true. Don't be afraid of others and most importantly, don't shy away from the world. Believe in yourself because no one can take away what's in your heart.. (^_^)v

“May the wind always be on your back and the sun upon your face and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.”

Johnny Depp

Dreams and stars are similar in the sense that they are both a little far fetched but not impossible to reach. People say, "shoot for the moon, even if you missed, you'll land among the stars". Dream big because more often than not, life throw at us problems and hurdles which at that time may seem impossible to solve. It may mold you into a stronger person, but unfortunately it may also cause someone to succumb to the constantly pressuring world. Even so, if there is a dream in you, you CAN stand back up No matter what happen, don't cry because it's over- smile instead, coz it happened.

Hopes and courage are born from both success and failures, more often the latter.. You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith. I mean, so what if your studies/job or even the society looks scary? Just face them head on, be strong and enthusiastic about it! When you learn to love what you do, that is when work becomes a hobby. My rule of thumb in life is- like what you do. If you don't like it, do something else. Why waste your perfectly good time on something you know you'll end up not doing it well right?

Looking back, much has happen since I enrolled in University. Of course there are ups and downs but there was never once where I regret my experiences because without them, I couldn't imagine who or where I would be today.

Laugh often, dream big, and reach for the stars!
ainin
p/s; Wellcom paper is on saturday! Haven't finish yet!! I'm in the middle of a C-R-I-S-I-S! Cry-seas!!

song of the day- Hold me now (Wayne Wonder)

2010-05-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hold Me Now

Wayne Wonder

I have a picture,

pinned to my wall.

An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all.

But look at our life now, we're tattered and torn.

We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn

Hold me now, warm my heart

stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind

Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we'll never find

So perhaps I should leave here, yeah yeah go far away

But you know that theres no where that I'd rather be than with you here

today

Hold me now, warm my heart

stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You ask if I love you, well what can I say?

You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play

So I'll sing you a new song, please don't cry anymore

and then I'll ask your forgiveness, though I don't know just what I'm

asking it for

Hold me now, warm my heart

stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

Exam Tips

2010-05-17T23:06:00.001+08:00

Heyya Bloggy!

Tomorrow is my first paper! Well Logging & Formation Evaluation, at 9o'clock in Chancellor Hall. Bring your sweater kids, it'd be FREEZING COOL! 3 hours in there >.< But oh booooy! I'm all pumped with adrenalin, very excited..! Hahhah!! I'm taking a 10 minutes break here so here I am, blogging away while my impending doom awaits. I mean, if I'm gonna die (god forbids) tomorrow, might as well leave some last words to be remembered by right? Hehheh! Joking! I'm prepared for this paper!! As best as I can la ^^ Woot woot!!

YOu... YES YOU. No need to look around, I AM talking about you. Hmm.. the ONLY reason you're reading this is because of the post title right? Hah! I knew it! What ever happened to good old leisure reading and caring for their friends? Ceiittt... but still, since I promised all you people out there, (who is sitting on the edge of their chair waiting eagerly, impatiently for the LAST MINUTE exam tips..) well, here you go!

ALL THE BEST

NO NEED TO STRESS

GO TO BED EARLY

GET SOME REST

WAKE UP IN THE MORNING

GET READY TO KICK ASS!

Wahahha!! I wanted to censored the last word, but where's the fun in it then right? Hahhah!! Alrighty then!! Back to work, back to work. No more loafing around twerps!

Pinn Pinn!! Coming through,

ainin

I want also..

2010-05-10T21:28:00.003+08:00

trouble at home

2010-05-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy..

Haihh... I thought today was gonna be a good day

Intro to Management test went well..

I even PLAYED in the rain!

Then reality caught up with me.

My younger sister would be in Terengganu..damn far loo..

My elder sister's boss is a B*****D

My mum is feeling sad coz my lil sis can be a B**** sometimes

Life is turning upside down..

Who would've thought?

Hmmm...

I dunno what I should do

ainin

STUDY WEEK is finally here~

2010-05-07T16:32:00.007+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

Whoa...exam is just around the corner!! This semester finished so quickly!! AAaaa!! SCREAMMMM!! Ahahhah.. The second draft of my exam timetable came out de, and me likey soo much! I hope the final draft stays the same. Tentatively, I should finish by the 29th of May. But I guess it's subjected to change. So now have to start doing comet daily, read logs and charts once in a while so that I won't forget, then study, study, study... NERD FACE- ON! (^3^)

"If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders"

ainin

last week of lecture

2010-05-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy

goshh!! It's so hot today!!!! When we walked back from cls at 11 just now, everyone was sweating like nobody's business..tsk3..piggy.. But it's okayh.. it's all gonna end soon coz... THIS WEEK IS THE LAST WEEK OF LECTURE!! My classes are like 1-2 hours per day only...Woot woot!! Me like!! XD Gotta concentrate in class de, pay attention pay attention..

I'm waking up considerably early everyday. Maybe coz i have something to look forward to each morning ^^ Besides, it's a good practice for study week and my final exam. MOST of my papers starts at 9!!

*jump jump*
ainin

Life's cruel, we're not..

2010-05-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy...

oh gosh...it's happening again...

I think i'm gonna go into hyperventilating mode.

I don't like it.

I SERIOUSLY don't.

I can lie to you, but how long can i lie to myself?

Genius Idiot, figure it out already!!

ainin

BoyGirl

2010-04-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

I just wanted to share something with you people out there..This kind of situation always happen but only some are lucky enough to notice that it's there...

Boy : I need someone to talk to.
Girl : I'm always here for you.
Boy : I know.
Girl : What's wrong?
Boy : I like her so much.
Girl : Talk to her.
Boy : I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl : Don't say that...you're amazing.
Boy : I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl : Then tell her.
Boy : She won't like me.
Girl : How do you know that?
Boy : I can just tell her...
Girl : Well just tell her.
Boy : What should I say?
Girl : Tell her how much you like her.
Boy : I tell her daily.
Girl : What do you mean?
Boy : I'm always with her...I love her.
Girl : I know how you feel. I have the same problem...but he'll never like me.
Boy : Wait. Who do you like?
Girl : Oh, some boy.
Boy : Oh, she won't like me either.
Girl : She does.
Boy : How do you know?
Girl : Because who wouldn't like you?
Boy : You.
Girl : You're wrong. I love you.
Boy : I love you too.
Girl : So are you going to talk to her?
Boy : I just did.

Think about it yea?
ainin

chocolate

2010-04-23T14:23:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

How many of you people out there feels guilty after eating a WHOLE BAR of chocolate? Trust me when I say this, I know EXACTLY how you feel.. If I have chocolates around, I will eat it. I will love it, love it, love it. I'd like a piece every day! My whole life, if I'm not feeling well, if I have not slept the day before..I seek CHOCOLATE! I really can't imagine the world without it..the days would be gloomy, the sun won't shine and the moon won't sing ^^

"Don't wreck a beautiful chocolate experience by feeling guilty"

Mmmmmmmmmmm...............chocolate.....
ainin

nasi lemak

2010-04-19T03:16:00.001+08:00

FAT RICE??

hahah!! Heyya bloggy!! Today dunno what has gotten into me..I was craving for nasi lemak soo badly! Had brunch with ceecak and thanu in V2- Nasi lemak. Dinner in V4- Nasi lemak. Supper in Sithick- Nasi lemak. Dayuummm! The anchovies sambal splashed over the rice tempted me!!

Such a delicacy...The hot steamy rice, infused with the smell of the pandan leaves, served with crunchy bite size anchovy hot chile sauce, newly fried crispy anchovies, fried peanut, sliced cool cucumber and hard-boiled or sunny-side up fried egg.

p/s: Only a true Malaysian should attempt this. Might get tummy ache. If condition persist, consult a doctor.

Super FULL!
ainin

UniKL, Lumut. MiMET BOtB

2010-04-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

On Saturday (17th of April), we went to Universiti Kuala Lumpur- Malaysian Institute of Marine Engineering Technology (UniKL MiMET) and joined their "Entrepreneur Musical Night" or also known as EMN. To cut long story short, En Maddd invited us to join the battle of the bands (BOtB) there, ~~bribing us each with rm10~~ promising us a great final practice before Eupho finale. So we went la, ~~for the money~~ for the experience. ^^

2 other bands competing in Eupho finale joined us- Salmah and the Swingers & Sour Stripes, making it a total of 3 bands from UTP competing in UniKL. Twas a sunny day, and it didn't help the headache i was having and the fever was only making it worst. But since I ate meds before we got on the bus, it was slowly subsiding. So we departed from UTP at about 2.45pm liddat, reached UniKL at about 3.45pm. They (the students there) have it good...their campus is right NEXT to the ocean! Well..yeah, it could be hotter there during the day but the night breeze should be fantastic right? Hmm2.. NEway, we reached there..Registered..Did a round of sound check before exploring the campus ground for cafes coz everyone was starving. We walked, and walked, and walked under the scorching and unforgiving heat of the sun..ONLY to find that the cafe is CLOSE. And in UniKL MiMET, there's only 1 cafe >.<

You know what happen??

Some of us laid sprawled on the floor, some leaning against cold stone wall with a defeated look, while some of us was bawling and throwing fits.. Everyone's tummy was grumbling, begging for food.. We even asked cik mat for food but he asked us to "puasa" (fast). Haiyoyo!! =.= THEN, after what seemed like forever, cik mat gathered all the UTP students, and offered us McD!! Everyone was brought to life. Everybody started talking again, the thought of food brought everyone alive. It's a hilarious sight ^_^

The competition officially began at 9pm. After a few speeches by the VIPs, the first band performed. We were the 4th band to be on stage, I was a wee bit nervous but thanks to the amazing crowd, we manage to have fun!! I love you people!! A total of 12 bands performed that night and after 3 hours, the result was announced...

SALMA & THE SWINGERS: Best performance, 2nd runner up
STEREOPOP: CHAMPION!!!

WOOHOO!!

Congratulations!! Everyone did a great job! The most important thing is to have fun right??

YAY STEREOPOP!

ainin

Euphonious 2010- PRELIM 040410

2010-04-19T00:19:00.004+08:00

Heyya bloggy!

The 4th of April marks the first step of Stereopop's journey towards Euphonious 2010..

I woke up at 10am and dizzily forced myself out of bed and into the shower room. I can still remember that even as the cold water hits my face, I closed my eyes.. savoring the last few seconds of sleep. Haihhh..sleeping is such a bliss.. ^^ The night before brainstormed on what to wear with my room mate- Zati, de.. We ransacked my whole wardrobe. Thank goodness I've brought a few dresses from home..and in the end (2 whole HOURS later) we decided on the mossy green knee-length dress with a cardigan, then a fur coat for "Bad Romance". (<-- Was singing bad romance)

Our turn was at 12 noon. And since I progress super, duper, MAJOR slowly when I'm sleepy..i only started getting ready at 10.30am. The guys said wanna go at 10.30 sumore.. Hahhah!! There were shouting, screaming, squealing, giggling, and laughter in the air that morning. PANDEMONIUM!! ^^ Then texted spawn saying i'll be late with one hand, while the other hand blowing my hair with the hair dryer..X)

Ladies DO multi task! Hehheh!!

Got to the hall JUST to realize that I haven't had a single drop of water since i woke up. Water bottle also didn't bring.. In the end, went up on the stage to perform after gulping down hastily a few mouth full from Chee Hui's bottle. Fuhh! What a day.. This is actually the 1st time i'm retelling the story. Not even my band mates know! ^^, After that, when the result was announced around 5.30pm (after the performances by Juwita Suwito and Altered Frequency), we were jumping with joy and couldn't hide our smiles when we were listed as one of the finalist. Woohoo!! The atmosphere was filled with light and positive mood, there was nothing that could spoil the moment. To be able to compete in the finals together with the rest of the AWESOME bands will be an experience I'll never forget =)

The date of the finale for Euphonious 2010 is set to be on the 23rd of April 2010, Friday at 8pm. Everyone is welcomed to join. Tickets can be bought in advance or on the day itself. Please note that its a free seating and it's on first-come-first-serve basis. So come early if you people wanna get good seats! XD

Can't wait!
ainin

GPEW dinner

2010-04-18T23:03:00.002+08:00

heyya bloggy!

I thought i was gonna die of shame that night. Oh gosh.. but still, its the first performance with STEREOPOP! Hehhehe!! I don't think I've told you about them.. Hmm2.. Let's see, Stereopop is a band formed for UTP's battle of the band- Euphonious. We have 5 members for GPEW- (Rezza, Kay, Spawn, Apek and I) and additional 3 members which makes it a total of 8 members for Eupho - (+Chee Hui, Suraya, Wadi).

Rezza bring the hall down with his awesome drum skills; Kay, Spawn and Apek plays the guitar (rhythm, bass, and lead respectively) and give lives to those listening to it; Chee Hui work his magic on the keyboard, Su work wonders with Saxophones and Wadi charm the ladies (and sometimes guys) with his trumpet. All in all, I'd say that it's a pretty good combination ✿◕‿◕✿

What do I do, you ask? Well...only the awesome ones get to have the mic all for him/herself! Buahahhah!! Nah2.. I'm not at all awesome thus landing myself as the tea lady. I bring refreshments everytime they're done with their jamming sessions. It's a tough job, but someone has to do it! Hehehhe!!

Getting back on the topic, for GPEW we performed 2 songs; STAY- Estrella and DON'T SPEAK- No Doubt. When i got the song titles i was like.... "WAAHHH~" Hahahha!! U remember that I find it difficult to sing in front of people i know, especially my friends? Don't speak was a tough one.. That song you gotta sing it with attitude. I was too SHYYYYYY!! Hahhah! Thank goodness the music saved me ^^

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, I'm very glad and grateful to be given this opportunity to be in this band. We bond as the time goes by and by every jamming session, I find it hard to say goodbye..I guess it's very silly of me, but..

it wouldn't be the same if it weren't for each and everyone of them..

You guys are the rainbows in my life!
ainin

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-04-18T22:09:00.001+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Woohh..This post is LOOONG overdue! Hehheh!! Happy Chinese New year people! I'm sorry Don, Sab and Ivan coz i couldnt make it for house hopping. Hopefully, all of you have more luck of getting angpows than I do >.<

Haihh...hols spend working in Garmin. Doesn't get better than this =.= Anyway, I wonder if there's time to AT LEAST go to a friends house?? Hurmmmm

Happy CNY!
ainin

H^3

2010-02-14T14:31:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy~

I'm HOME!! Hahahha...Heyya all you people out there! Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's day yea! I'm spending my cny working and with no valentine. Haihhhh...said isn't it =.= Sumore curve so lively with the drums going on and on, lions passing by, and I CAN'T GO house hopping to collect my angpau /gg..imba...

Anyway, on a totally different note, it's really weird to see lots of people in the mall today, SUPER weird coz i see our fellow chinese dressing ALL BLACK and some wandering around aimlessly around as early as 12.30pm. ^^ Everyone is just walking around, doing nothing. Isn't it better to spend it with family- play a round of cho tai di and loose all the $, then have a good laugh? Hurmm.. I WANT TO GET OUTTA HERE!!!

Haih..it's approaching 3, so i've got 7 hours to kill. Wat to do..wat to do??? Sumore I haven't started on Wellcom's (Well Completion & Production) assignment. 15 pages weyh..wanna do last minute? I was hoping it wouldn't come to that =( My fingers would tercabut! I'm just grateful that there's a laptop and wifi connection here. Else, i seriously dunno what to do.. I WANNA GO play around instead of getting stuck in here!!!! =.=

living an extraordinary boring life today
ainin

hope

2010-02-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy~

I'm lucky to have friends like you people out there. Always ready with an antenna to pick up my bad mood and cheer me up..Aww... Thanks.. Having you as a friend is like having my own sunshine, all warm and fuzzy~ ^^ Seriously, you brought me back to life. ;P

Ahhh!!! Reading back on what i wrote, i sounded so depressed!! I can't believe i ACTUALLY wrote that! Hehhe.. well i guess when you're in the mood, ANYTHING is possible~! Wee~~ But I'm fine now, (for the time being anyway), I'm holding up till everything settles ^^ It's true what Abraham Lincoln said, "At the end of the day, it's not the years in your life that counts; it's the life in your years."

Friends are like parachutes

Even though I was falling head first to the ground, they supported me and brought me back gently back on my feet.

I WILL be strong and we'll GET THRU this watever it takes, we'll get through it together,

ainin

life

2010-02-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy..

I am nowhere near perfect

I eat when I'm bored

I fall down A LOT

I'm vulnerable to believing lies

I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile

I live my life thinking about others because I care too much

I make up excuses for everything

I have best friends and only 1 enemy

I have dramas and memories

and that's life..

I woke up today to find myself wondering if it could have been different. Then I realized that sooner or later, as much as you try to avoid it, problems will catch up with you, and when it does, all your senses will be on fire. On the other hand, I guess if it's hell now, it's gonna be Armageddon in 5 years time. I guess now is a good time to learn. Still, I wish it hadn't..

Lemme ask you a question.. If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character...Would you slow down? Or speed up? In my 20 years of life, it's a question even I don't have the answer to. I'm so used to being sure of EVERYTHING in my life. I'm the type of person who will not change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I lived with that happily, you know. I'm one of those people. =) I'm tough, ambitious, and i know excatly what i want. If that makes me a bitch, That's fine by me. But yeah..right now, I'm having my rare moments of doubts..

I'm gonna go relax myself..talking nonsense here adey

ainin

our lullaby

2010-02-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

This song could put me to sleep anytime of the day.

Especially if sung by a husky voiced ceecak.

Hhehehe...

Enjoy!

...The itsy-bitsy spider...

...Climbing up the wall...

...Down came the rain...

...And washed the spider out...

...Out came the sun...

...And dried up all the rain...

...And the itsy-bitsy spider...

...Climbed up the wall again...

Love,

ainin

Behaviour

2010-02-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy~

We were born to this world with a lot of influence. They could be from our parents, our siblings, our relatives, our friends or even the advertisements plastered before our eyes. Those may stimulate our behavior to become either better or worse. Well behavior such as politeness, respect, confidence, rational and honesty are essential in maintaining a happy and likable life where people look up to you with joy and proud.

In order to sustain this rigid structure of behavior, we have to beforehand practice them in our early stages of life. It is always better to practice them since childhood when everything is manageable and flexible. Not only can we make more friends, we can even broaden our shallow and rusted lifestyle. Good behavior brings good femininity in people both as respect and friendship. Thus, it is important to ensure the fertility of a seed before you sow it.

On the other hand, there are several negative or better off said as destructive behavior that always drag people to the path where success is further than it should be. It is the path that leads to a dead end. dom dom dom.. Examples of the negative behavior are rebelling, lying, being rude, talking in a lousy manner, farting silently and giving out an awful smell, and even being lazy. These behaviors can lead us to a lotus eating life even though we might have some fun along the way. As always, it will not lead to the improvement of life where good behavior are treated highly than the bad ones, where people look up to those who are well behaved while turning an eye blind to those who neglect good behavior.

Based on this, it is obvious that good behavior makes constructive life while bad behavior makes destructive life. However, it is entirely in our hand to decide, to choose the road in our life for the better or for the worse. Behavior, well known as our nature in life, developed with what we feed it to be. So it is thoroughly up to us to choose how we want it to be- either to lose by practicing destructive behavior or win by sustaining good behavior.

am said to be the devil in cloak,

ainin

art of love

2010-01-21T11:24:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggy..

A long long time ago someone asked me, "between the both of you, who love the other person more?" Without hesitating i said, "him". Right now, I don't think I'll be able to say that so confidently anymore. The answer COULD be, me? All i'm saying is that the table could have turned.Well, we've dated for quite some time wert ^^ Sucks to be you guys out there!! Hehehe ..

It sure is funny, but i don't remember when exactly that i start loving him. All I know is that love came knocking on my door when i least expected it. Hmmm...It dawned to me that the greatest thing that anyone could ever learn is to love, and be loved in return. It's beautiful!!

dreaming that you'll always be mine,
ainin

lets begin again

2010-01-16T12:49:00.001+08:00

Heyy bloggy,

"You can push me down as many times as you want. But I WILL stand back up, every single time."

When i open my eyes, the clockwork will start..
ainin

A sound plan

2010-01-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

heyya bloggy!!

Mum is coming back this SUNDAY!!!! Woot woot!! Hopefully her flight would not be delayed or anything.. London is still having blizzards and all.. Hopefully everything goes well.

Today's quote:
"When problems involve practical matters, you focus on achieving a solution, rather than where you went wrong"

ainin

sunshine and roses

2010-01-13T12:31:00.001+08:00

heyya bloggy!

Today i wanna talk about love^^.. You gotta admit, it's an evergreen topic and very interesting~

Ehem ehem.. Lemme start by asking you.. Yes. YOU. What is Love? I believe that is the most difficult question for mankind to answer. There is no definite description of love.. Love is so abstract that even if you're face-face with love, you might not even realise it. Love is greater than what anyone can express for it is something so complex, no words could describe it.. and yet, love is also simple than even a child understands it...

I know what you think, love is not all sunshine and roses all the time.

I acknowledge that. However, one should not expect to create the PERFECT relationship, rather one should look at the beauty of love in many hidden ways. Be it in a simple kiss, or a fight which leads to a more mature and understanding relationship between couple/family.

Do you remember the rush of emotions when u first see that special someone? The warmth that seems to surround you when he/she is around.. When I looked at my life- how the pieces fall into place. I realise something important- all the actions, decisions, and path that I have taken in my life revolves around love.. Receiving love, giving love, sharing love.. All other things in life seems pale without love.

So, what do I think of love? My own definition of love would most probably be that love is as great as a lightning stroke, so bright, and powerful, it threatens to shatter the heavens. But at the same time, love is as soft as a flower, and often just as fragile. So, though it has always been here, it will only appear in its own sweet time.

In holistic, there is no point "chasing" love, or "forcing" someone to love you. Love should be nurture, and with time, it will bloom into the most beautiful flower..

Understanding love is the first step to peace making,
ainin

monopoly

2010-01-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

heyy bloggy~

Of course everyone had played monopoly at least once in their life time. It's the number ONE family game of all time! Hahahh!! I personally think that by playing monopoly, you not only can strengthen the bond between family members, but also exercise your creative mind..

Last night, my little sister and a few of her friends came over for a sleep over. We played a game of monopoly which ended up in laughter and people rolling on the floor ^^ Ina won the game though.. Hmm.. she must have cheated somehow.. The interesting part of the game would be the use of credit cards. YES, the producers even implemented the plastic GOD in the game. Ergo, we were spending millions and MILLIONS of dollars last night. Felt so good!

Oh, i forgot to mention.. I'm home peeps! However, i've got a proposal that must be completed before sunday. So, the chances of going out to have a jolly good fun EVERY SINGLE DAY is out of the question. Maybe I can con someone into doing it for me? Haih.. I will give it my best! Hou yeaa...

Gotta go shower (YES..I'm fully aware of what time is it..) ^^
ainin

my first Carl's Jr.

2010-01-05T23:55:00.004+08:00

heyya bloggy~!

At the sight of UTP's main gate, i felt a wave of sadness, no sense of belonging whatsoever.. I admit that all seems familiar, but THAT's it.. At least, ceecak's here ^^ That's the plus side :)

Ahh, coming back to my entry's title- Carl's Jr. For those of you out there who's wondering WHAT is Carl's Jr., it's a brand of fast food chain which sells GIGANTIC burgers! The price is abit overrated for burgers but it's yummy-licious! What i can say is that, the burger was DEFINITELY more filling than any burger I've had. (one single exception is Chilli's) (^v^)v

Here's some photos for you to "devour"..hehehhe!!

AND this is what was left of it after a few CHOMPS!

But nothing beats home cooked food,

ainin